Think about it this way...your future [happiness] always depends on how you react to things in the present. It's what you do or don't do, in any moment, that matters. Also, your intentions, good or bad, don't help any situation. It's what you actually say and do that really matters. Do nothing that adds to more "drama", surrounding any situation. Focus on honesty and seek clarity. In addition, stop endlessly repeating each blow by blow event of any situation. Nobody likes problems and nobody benefits from escalating the drama caused by any problem by constant repetition and chatter!